I feel spent and utterly content after this first day (of seven) diving deeper into meditation in Gurucharan’s workshop “The 21 Stages of Meditation”. We were introduced us to the first three stages of meditation as outlined by Yogi Bhajan and Gurucharan. These are: upset, boredom, and irritation. Gurucharan guided us through meditations to deliberately provoke these responses in us. I must say that, for me, he certainly did not need to design a specific meditation for me to experience these three states within my meditative practice, as these arise just almost on cue each and every time I step into my meditation practice. These are ‘blocks’ as I describe them that my mind/ego presents as arguments to try and stop me from proceeding any further into this process. The trick for me is to remain the watcher of it all and continue with the practice regardless of the comments the mind throws up at me.
Our very first meditation was to chant the Adi Shakti Mantra for 37 minutes (which seemed to pass very rapidly – what felt more like a quick 11 minutes): “Ek Ong Kar Sat Nam Siri Wahe (pronounced ‘Wah-hey’) Guru”. It is said that chanting the Adi Shakti Mantra “opens all of the chakras and connects the soul to the Universal Soul, and liberates us from the cycle of karma”. I am not so sure about all of that in the last sentence, as I am not very knowledgeable about these things. However, I certainly felt any and all perceived ‘stuck’ energy in my body clear out and I experienced a rippling flow throughout my entire being. I began chanting, as the doer, wherein I was ‘doing’ the chant. After a few minutes I felt a distinct shift in my energy. I shifted from the ‘doer’ to a state of ‘being’. I began singing the chant; I felt the shift when the chant began to sing me. This shift is such a profound event that I experience when I chant for any prolonged period. I cannot reach for the experience of ‘being’ – I literally ‘become it’ as I somehow drop the state of ‘doing’ and slip into ‘being’. And I go through the same process each time I begin a chanting experience. I believe this is what might be described a getting a glimpse of the Infinite while being in the finite.
I really enjoyed being able to share my meditation practice with a group and felt so blessed and honored to have a teacher, and such a learned one, to guide me through and into a deeper realization and discovery of that being who is “Elizabeth”. I go to sleep tonight, after the eleven minute Meditation for Stress Relief (yes, I will still do this despite all of the work done today), knowing that I put my best effort forward. I did not perform perfectly, and that is fine. I am a perfectly imperfect human being, and I am building an ever greater capacity to accept and embrace all of who I am, warts and all. Ong namo guru dev namo
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